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what comes before
what comes after

we are very used to narratives
like
beginning
tension rising
climax
end

now, what do we remember the most?
it’s like a list of companies in a telephone book.
do we take more notice to what comes first?
a list of names responsible for a project
a list of topics that are important for our world.

what if words drown in words?
what if the questions we have drown in themselves?
what if we pay so much attention on - for instance - form that we lose the juice?

I just made a video:

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it is an edited version of this.

frames of mind.

my mind is oozing. not a pleasant feeling. something triggered in me when he beat my head into the floor. tick. ticked. triggered. so i have been trying to see new frames. set new frames for my thoughts and emotions and actions and wishes/hopes. i still like to ask questions, but i realize that i dont proclaim them as much. that is a bad sign, right? soon I might just as well become a bitter man, hunchback, who just sits around waiting for the grave to meet him. bah.

videoblogging to me is just memories recorded. too bad we have this urge to share our memories, while at the same time we want to keep them sacred. to ourselves. they are OURS. don’t you mess with my memory, even if your version is teh truth.

it is summer, it is weekend, but it is raining, and chilly, and i want the sun to come back, and i want to feel like all of this matters, again. like it really matters if i make that one more movie, or a hundred more. so many conversations we just lose track of, because so much comes after them.